The Job Search

The honeymoon is over, I need to find a job. It's September the time people are starting to go back to university and I'm sat at home as a graduate.

I've been putting off this whole thing and making excuses to why I haven't been looking. It needs to stop. There's a theme on this blog of me needing to get my arse in gear. What I'm finding hard is that I'm trained for absolutely nothing. The degree I chose is what I want to do in the future I dream of being on stage night after night. However that's not going to happen without a lot of blood sweat and tears. While I work on that though I need an income.

So this week I have started. And it is frustrating! just for a simple retail job you have to go through pages and pages of applications until you can submit! What i find the hardest is making it seem that I want every job I apply to even if that's furthest from the truth,.

Let's hope something turns up soon.

Kate xx

Losing weight

So I must mention eating and getting healthy or losing weight in every other post. It certainly feels that way to me. However it is something that is always on my mind. I've never been very body confident - I suppose that's not uncommon with a lot of people. I remember being 11 or 12 and feeling chubby in clothes that I was wearing, that's not right is it!?!? I look back at photos now and think that I must have been crazy to think I was fat certainly compared to how I am feeling now.

Currently I am a size 14. Over the past year and a bit I have put on over a stone and if I carry on the way I am going then the weight is just going to carry on piling on, so I need to stop and change now. I have gone through waves of eating healthy and losing the chub but I always fail a few weeks in! Every time I say that I'll stick with it and I tell everyone I'm working out and trying to lose some chub in the hope that them knowing will stop me from failing, but alas this is not the case

So today, the day this is published is a fresh start, I've bought the fruit I have the mindset (again) to workout let's hope that this time it works.

I want to play around with some ideas for my "journey" how freaking cliché 😂  Maybe I'll take a photo everyday to see if anything happens. Maybe I'll film a few workouts and see if i improve. However we all know that it will be a miracle if any of these things happen, all we can do is hold our breath.

Kate x

Creativity

I started writing this a good month ago and have only just got round to finishing it. This is what I mean when I say I put things off and have zero motivation. I want to blog but I never end up writing anything.

I would like to think of myself as a creative person. I studied a degree in a pretty creative area. However however I have been feeling incredibly uncreative (is that even a word). I don't really know what the cause for this is maybe it's a motivation thing or maybe it's just that I don't believe in myself that much.

However for a while now I have wanted to get my brain in gear, like I have said before. Whether that is just to write a few more blog posts or start to draw a little bit. I even have had ideas for little stories (whether they will ever transform into anything readable I don't know).

I have a problem though because this creativity always hits me in the middle of the night when I am cuddling up in bed about to drop off to sleep. That's exactly what happened with this blog post. And before I would just go to sleep and tell myself I will act on it in the morning, then morning comes and guess what I have completely forgotten what the hell my idea was. So today I have forced myself to at least write a draft of this post before I sleep. I can then sort the mess that this post is in the morning.

Here's hoping that the creativity keeps on coming more and more.

Kate x